since everyone came and left over christmas, i am so bored. my life seems like it's been this string of boring boring nothing. don't get me wrong - i totally needed it to be boring for a stretch. i have a great job, a sweet house, the best pets. i am very content. just, now that i have seen everyone again. i guess i'm just revitalized. i have been more creative and excited in the past two weeks than i have in years. literal years.

i've made mixtapes and packages and written letters. sought and download a ton of new music. ordered stuff for the new old camera my daddy gave me. rearranged and cleaned my house completely. straightened and curled my hair. called friends over. left the television off for 48 hours straight. quit smoking.

it feels awesome.

i am so excited for tomorrow. and the next day. who knows wtf will happen - it might be bad or good. but i for sure know there is good stuff out there. i'm the one who has gotta find it though. otherwise all i will get is the bad stuff when it comes crashing down on my head.

i've been letting it crash. but not anymore!

2010 is totally the beginning of my best year. i feel it in my bones.